Do I know what I’m doing? No, no I do not. I’m constantly questioning myself, wondering if what I’m doing is right or wrong. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t look down on myself. But still, I know God wants to do something amazing in my life.
How do I know that?
I’m STILL in Lakeland, FL. After trying to fight with God for almost 7 years now, He still has me in a place that I thought I was done with after college. He has shaped me and molded me over the years and has placed me somewhere completely out of my comfort zone.
Let me just say, I’m not a writer….never claimed to be. But, right now I’m trying to write something that is geared towards 3-5 yr. olds and I don’t know the first place to start. Yes, I’ve written 6 scripts already…but will they be effective? Will the things I write go right over their heads? If it does, will they learn ANYTHING at all??? These are the questions that are constantly going through my mind. But, I know God has placed me here for such a time as this. Do I know where this will lead? No. Will this lead to my utter destruction? I doubt it, but who knows. I have to take it one day at a time and not beat myself up when one thing doesn’t sound right or look right.
There is a big picture in this. Where will this lead these kids? How can they apply these stories to their lives so that they can effectively reach their friends for Christ when the time comes?
“Don’t sweat the small stuff and it’s ALL small stuff.”